Yes i'm on Facebook. Thx for the nice compliment! I am not that great, not like Major Taylor at least. : )

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So the job is fine, so far. I'm pretty content which is cool.

I got into a passionate conversation with a videogame friend of mine about how I believe some people (me) are meant to be alone/single (no negative connotation associated with the word "alone') and some people are meant to couple up. He believes that a guy knows what's best for me and that's why many guys have tried to pin me down and get into relationships with/marry me. I say that's bullshit. I know what makes me happy. I've lived 30 yrs. so I think I've got it figured out.

I have been grilled by my friend at work too. He is like a smart, sensible brother. He's really great. He (like my videogame friend) doesnt want me to give up, but wants me to find someone because there is someone for me. I say "Puh-shaw!" But then I stop and think, hard. I try to find someone I would actually consider marrying. I decided that I'd marry the lead guitarrist of Rammstein, Richard. Because I'd like to get to know the man behind his lyrics (in his solo project Emigrate) and because I am sure he'd leave me the fuck alone. He'd be too busy being too damn fine and writing music to bother me with things like "quality time" and such nonsense!(Did I mention the part about being too damn fine? Oh yeah, I did.)

Anywho...

I am happy as heck in my new apartment. I come home to NO ONE. It's great! I can cook what I want, walk around half-naked, pee with the door open, it's AWESOME! I also get to game, write, think, draw, day dream WITHOUT interruption. You see where I am going with this?

I am also having a creative itch. I am wondering how it will manifest itself. I'm excited to start a new writing project or drawing. I have been hankering to head over to the Mpls. Institite of Art to sketch. I could see that Louvre exhibit!

and,

I wish I was going to see Rammstein on Tour. :( :( :( I just want to die I am so depressed about not going!!! But, someday, right? (image from www.Rammimages.com)I love Rammstein so much that it makes me physically sick. lol

2nd day in a row i wanted to buy chew for a nicotine fix, trying not to smoke. I fought the urge & won...this time.

AAAAAAAH!

I need a new job.

Anyway, more importantly...

I am in my new place, although it is bare bare and bare. Just me, 4 bikes, 4 suitcases, a blanket, a stuffed mouse and me. lol Seriously though, that's it.

I need a plan to get going. I want to start my 2010 season NOW. Officially! I think I will sit down with my Cyclist Training Bible and map stuff out. I can't afford Vision Quest right now, not just yet. So I have to self coach some Pre training adn Base training. My new team seems to be nice. I wish I could find time to ride with them. Things have been so hectic lately. At least I rode Sunday when it was nice! Things could be worse! :)


And Rammstein has a new album that I am fieeeeeeeending for!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAHH!

I'm so poor that i bought a $1.50 box of pop tarts to live off of for the next 2 days...

I'm so poor that i bought a $1.50 box of pop tarts to live off of for the next 2 days...

In my new apt. as of yesterday. Slept on a hard floor. Ow! Goin 4 a ride.

Yay snow!

Today it is snowing! It is so pretty I love it. Not enough to really accumulate yet, and it's not cold, so it's okay. The sky is all white and the trees are sprinkled with white. Blah blah blah...omg, sounded like poetry. :P

I have officially joined the Saint Paul Bicycle Racing Club and their active race team called Bianchi Grand Performance. So, I guess I have to change my license soon :( Oh I am so sad to say goddbye for REAL to Ski Utah. But, I guess I am no longer a Utahn let alone a racing cycling for that team. Ho hum. :(

Anyway! I am excited though! New exciting adventures in my journey through the Minnesota Cycling Scene. Fun!

Omg! My first time watching the cleveland show and i am rotfl!!!

Omg...i swear that i'm having breakfast across from the actress who played the teacher in Child's Play 2!!!

Update

THE GYM
I hit the gym last Friday for an hour in the AM and then went 2 times this week for ~30-40min. OMG! I LOVE lunges across the b-ball court. They hurt, but my ass will thank me when it fits back into the size 8 jeans. :)

WORK
Work has been good and busy. So many dead mice, dissection, body pieces flying everywhere, etc. all in the name of cancer research. Pediatric Cancer research. I see the way the Bone Marrow transplanted mice look when undergoing rejection and it literally TERRIFIES ME to think that the HUMANS that undergo this rejection look the same. It is really really sad and scary. No joke. I hope what I am doing makes a difference.

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Did I mention how proud I am of Cadel Evans for winning the UCI Road Race World Championship?
Congrats my dear Cadel. Although you have never been on any of my hottie lists or had any otehr type of honorable mention, I have watched you ride for years and years and have seen you try and try and try and try. So, now, I am happy as hell for you that you succeeded!!!

Oh, and...

Have I mentioned how hot Vino is looking (as usual)?

lol

'Cross Practice Report

Boy...I suck bad. lol

It was nerve racking enough getting back on my 'cross bike after my horrible crash out of last season that left me with 2nd degree tendon tears, blinding pain and basically 1 arm for 2 mos.

We did normal ride around and hop the barrier, then the guy in charge, a Ridley guy, had us do some tactics where we rode in pairs and the crossed in front of eachother tryig to block right before the barrier.

WHOA!!!

I just wanted to focus on the dismount, clearing the barrier and then remounting (which I am so rusty at). It felt like an advanced 'cross practice. I tried 3 times and then whenever I tried to remount a swarm of guys would come up behind me and almost plow me over! As if it was a fucking race!!! So, after saying "sorry" and "excuse" me ad infinitum, I got fed up and asked the guy in charge if I could practice on my own with another barrier on the course because I just couldn't go that fast. He was totally cool with that, as long as I felt okay. Thanks goodness. Aparently he knows Ali Goulet (YAY!!!) and we chatted about him for a sec. That was nice. I remembered Ali's 'cross clinic and that made me feel pretty good about myself. Oh how I miss some of those familiar faces. :(

I practiced on my own while they did a hard practice race then I headed home. I was a dork and went up to talk to some Bianchi/Grand PErformance guy in the parkign lot and said I wanted to join that team. He didnt know what to say to me, I was very embarrased. I am used to people being welcoming and excited to chat about their teams. He seemed tired and in a hurry to leave and confused as to why I was introducing myself to him and talking to him. Oh well.

Now I am home and tired after a spin class, a long day in lab and then 'cross practice.

NUMBERS:
0:45 Spin Class
~1:00 'Cross practice

I'll get there at 5:30 next week so I can ride the course alone until the clinic at 6:15.

So far, i suck at cross.

The road back to fitness

I am on a journey to get my cyclist body back, or more positively I should say to get my racing body back. Being laid off and then running out of money made it impossible to race, care for my bike, etc. It may sound funny but it's true. I couldnt even buy gas for my car because my unemployment was a bit less than 50% of my normal income. I could only pay bills...barely. I couldnt even afford my own food. Thus, I drove no where since the last race I did in April here in MN and I ate crap 50% of the time. I either ate bad food provided by famility members of my own choosing, or I ate barely anything. Thus, I have watched my weight go up and my pants get tighter. Now, I am in my "fat" pants...which are really my normal-sized pants but to me ever since I became an athlete they are FAT pants LOL!

So, today I took a SPIN Express class at my new gym (at the Univ of MN Rec center) at 6:45am. It was 45 min long and was pretty challenging. It felt awesome. I have never done a spin class before and have onyl heard "bad" things or negative things about them. I dont know where those folks got their info because this was fun!

So afterwards I went to shower quick and get to work...and then I noticed whilst looking for the shower that it was like a prison shower! Everyone was together! I was so FREAKED! Then, off to the side there was a lone shower with a curtain so I was ok. I have to get over my hang up about being naked in front of other women I guess.

So, I am at lab now and excited to get the day done. Why? Because 'cross practice is tonight and I AM going FINALLY. :) My stuff os packed up here in my car/in my gym locker and my bike is in my car. I'll head out to the park at 4:40pm today. Course practice is at 5:30, the clinic is at 6:15 and a practice race is at 6:45. FUN! :) I am nervous though of course.

Just reaffirming my undying devotion to Rammstein!

Dear Mr. Anonymous...

http://www.visit-x.net/rammstein/

My thoughts are...

1) Go to New York, find Richard, tie him up in his apartment and make him my slave for a week straight and then pray that I still have a job when I get back to Minnesota;

2) OMG! I am soooooooo damn jealous! Why cant I be in the video tying Paul and Richard up and spanking and biting them? AAAH! I dont do the cowboy fantasy, but the other ones are great;

3) Who needs internet porn anymore? Now we have this! LMAO!

4) I am so pleased with this work, great job Till on your English singing. Much improved! :) I cant wait to spend my hard earned money on this new album.



And, I will now officially do ANYTHING except commit suicide to see Rammstein in concert and the icing on the cake will be to fulfill number on the list above.

Ok, gottat go to work...but those images will be stuck in my head, OMG! Naked Rammstein!